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Tuesday, August 31st, 2004

Subject:mad (button)love for 'bri
Time:11:18 pm.
Mood: tired.
*hides face in hands* um. I was avoiding schoolbooks?

I REALLY have to hit the books from tomorrow until the twentieth or so, and I don't know. I have a habit of letting things linger in the hard drive, unfinished, when they're about 20 pages long (luke/david, anyone?). So. This was supposed to be the first part. There is more, but it sucks ass.

Also, I have decided that I would actually find it very amusing to dance to this song.

i am a crackhead. barney, sorensen, g. nothing happens.Collapse )
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Monday, August 30th, 2004

Time:9:36 pm.
Mood: cranky.
Inspired by this meme:

The Rules are:
Step 1: Open your Winamp or other MP3 player.
Step 2: Put all of your music on random.
Step 3: Write down the first 25 songs it plays, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 4: Wait for complaints about the esoteric nature of your mp3s.

Unfortunately, I can't find the "random" button on Windows Media Player, so you get the random playlist it generated. WMP calls it my "favourites to listen to on weekdays". Well okay then.

the songsCollapse )

Here is the playlist that they call "favourites to listen to on weekends". o.O There are many repetitions which I will not include.

aHAHAha.Collapse )

That was the lamest thing I ever did. I'm supposed to be studying, but am so irritated with a bunch of people that I have decided not to. *hangs head*

I realise I am the only one interested in this. :D
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Monday, July 19th, 2004

Time:9:53 pm.
Mood:very, very angestpanedashboardconfessionalish.
I'm going through a very low period right now. I am so unhappy (or at least I think I am) it's weird, because exactly one year ago, on the 19th of July, I was meeting a host of new people during my orientation at Punahou, which was one of the happiest times of my life.

However, I have a kitten. A white kitten, a fluffy one, who, after three days, comes when I call.

That makes up for things, at least to me.

I think I might be absent for a while. Then again, I might be back tomorrow. It depends on how things go. I know, very teenangestpaney, but this is how it is. Take care.
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Thursday, July 1st, 2004

Time:9:48 pm.
Mood:calm (ish).
You are an SECL--Sober Emotional Constructive Leader. This makes you a politician. You cut deals, you change minds, you make things happen. You would prefer to be liked than respected, but generally people react to you with both. You are very sensitive to criticism, since your entire business is making people happy.

At times your commitment to the happiness of other people can cut into the happiness of you and your loved ones. This is very demanding on those close to you, who may feel neglected. Slowly, you will learn to set your own agenda--including time to yourself.

You are gregarious, friendly, charming and charismatic. You like animals, sports, and beautiful cars. You wear understated gold jewelry and have secret bad habits, like chewing your fingers and fidgeting.

You are very difficult to dislike.


But people who have seen it are like "OMG that is you!"

I do not wear gold. Ever. Nor do I like sports or beautiful cars. I only enjoy sports because of the team spirit thing. But the secret bad habits? SO ME.
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Thursday, June 24th, 2004

Time:6:22 pm.
Dying once again from stress. However, went to camp over the weekend and it was SO, SO SO COOL.



All her artwork is so gorgeous.

Thanks to dorkorific for the link.
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Friday, June 11th, 2004

Time:2:30 am.
Mood: awake.
POA.Collapse )

Oh what the hell, Dan is always edible.

I hate that I've become like the Harry of OOTP. Not with the dangerous exploits or getting expelled or not being a prefect. The teenage moodiness and ANGEST PANE FURY STRESS CANNOT TAKE IT ANY MORE.

However, I offered to chaperone my sister and her four friends at the mall today, while I was out with my friends. This meant that I had to follow them around, leaving my friends to party on without me as it were, also buy them food and hairbands from Axcezz, because I am Responsible. See, all their previous chaperones (made up of the friends' elder brothers/sisters) just abandoned them and ran off somewhere. So they were not allowed to go out at all. And their parents trust only me. because I'm Head Girl. *cries* I'm old. and boring.
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Monday, June 7th, 2004

Subject:teenage angest pane BEWARE
Time:8:43 pm.
Mood: cranky.
Back from holiday.

While on holiday, I found out a number of disturbing things. First of all, I went off to ESCAPE from everyone and everything at school, having suffered an embarrassing, disturbing, horrifying, tearful and semi-public breakdown week before last, after the exams ended, and who should I meet by the poolside but the school PRINCIPAL.

At least she is really, really nice. I actually really love her (how many people can say that about their principal? at least not here) and think she's underappreciated at our school. She brought me good news. In other words, people think I'm so put together and focused when I actually have no fucking clue what I'm doing with anything.

Oh well. Holidays = fun, especially with cute boys to perve on, except that I discovered another thing about myself. Everyone thinks I'm really confident but I'm actually really withdrawn. I act like a social person but I have a deeply buried wish to just be a happy little people-watcher. F'rinstance, I came back from dinner to have a drink by the beach. (And by drink, I mean non-alcoholic, of course.) Then I got up to stretch my legs. There was this cute white boy sitting at dinner with his parents and as I walked by, he got up and followed me.

Not really wanting to imagine anything was going on that, well, wasn't, I kept walking, and he somehow managed to cross my path about 12 times. We blink. Smile. Blink. Smile. And for the next two days, he hangs around the pool at my feet as I'm sitting in a deckchair reading. He turns up at the beach and starts pretend-surfing right in front of me. We never actually talk to each other, just smile and nod and smile, he told his friend I was beautiful (I think), and then... I totally blow him off when he tries to talk to me.

I was Just. Too. Shy. I can't explain it!


All right all right it was maybe a little funny in retrospect.


Hanson's new album - released on the 20th of April or something like that.

Here the kids are really sheltered. And really a bunch of goody-two-shoes. I remember going into a bathroom in Hawai'i and there was this thing written on the door. "4/20!!!!! ROCK ON!" or something like that. I was like 'What the hell?' and my student teacher told me the significance. Then she asked me whether we'd never done pot before. I was like 'OMG! DRUGS! NO NEVER!' because really, never, I have never even touched alcohol (unlike certain people and prefects I know) and she couldn't believe it.

My other friends don't even know what pot is. We were reading a short story and they thought "coke" was short for Coca-Cola.


In other news, you must read The Tricksters.
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Wednesday, June 2nd, 2004

Subject:sleep is good.
Time:12:00 am.
Mood: cranky.
I watched Troy today.Collapse )

Still, it was a lot better than I'd expected, probably because I was expecting the worst.

Anyway I am going on holiday. I have barely been on the computer these past few days and I am going to the beach tomorrow! And I would have to pick this time to start reading A Game of Thrones, which admittedly I did not love so much upon first read because GRRM was just too vicious toward all his characters. I mean... the deaths... the burnings... the trauma... and BRAN, who was my favourite from the start. *cries* I'm still upset. But I just happened to read the first few pages and now I am hooked. I don't seem to mind the terrible things that happen to everyone so much any more. It's a really gorgeous series. I will have to cart all the books to the beach now.

I am predictable. I love all the Starks, especially Eddard and Bran, and want to throw Cersei out of a window, while the only other person I have discussed the books with feels exactly the opposite.

Also, I am searching for katya's asoiaf stuff now. Where did it all go?

PS: 'bri/irritatedscone (I have always loved that username), thanks for your advice. You are the best. :D It has worked, up to a point.
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Saturday, May 22nd, 2004

Time:10:17 pm.
Mood: indescribable.
I want these.

I love The Tricksters. When I first read it two years back, I didn't see the appeal, but now I do. The beach. Harry. The slow, dreamy way she interacts with everyone, and Felix, although I am still wondering whether he really did lure her away on purpose. The carrot flowers and Suriel the Spade and beautiful Christobel, who is so familiar. I love the passage where Harry dives down into the sea, just before she puts her hand through the rock, because it's so sharp and summery and I need a beach holiday.

Same goes for The Changeover, which is my very favourite (although I haven't reread for a while, so who knows?). Laura Chant, who's supposed to look like a heron, and Sorry Carlisle, my hugest fictional crush ever. School prefects *sticks out tongue*. He pins a tiny picture of Laura onto this huge picture of a nude woman he has on his wall.

PS I am curious. How do y'all refer to the week before last? I always say 'last last week' like a retard, but so does everyone, it's just so natural. I only just realised that not everyone says that.
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Subject:asleep in the summertime
Time:2:46 pm.
Mood: rejuvenated.
OMG OMG OMG OMG emerging from a pile of exam stress (no, they are still not over) THE LATEST GILMORE GIRLS EPISODE.

I'm reading The Tricksters, Teen Vogue, and dreaming about my upcoming 5-day beach holiday. I love beach holidays. Ever since Standard 6 they have been an important part of my year. Just when you think you can't stand school any more, along comes the beach holiday, after the simply gruelling mid-years, and you can fly free!

I think my body is structured differently from everyone else. I'm 157 cm tall and 110 lb, if you round the weight up a little, so... so the point of this is to ask whether anyone has any sensible diet tips. Please please please please. I just want for once to go on my beach holiday without giving the other female members of my family a reason to feel smug about how much thinner they are than me. I mean. As soon as I noticeably started losing weight from stress this week, they went on a diet, too. It is ridiculous.

Also, I love the pin-dot bikini from Teen Vogue, and I want to be able to wear it by Christmas. The girls in there are so pretty. I want their clothes. And I have never wanted clothes before. I am the kind of girl who has never worn makeup to go out. I always leave the house with a clean face. In fact, I do not generally read Teen Vogue. But oh, the summer clothes! I want Havaianas. And the pin-dot bikini; and a pretty straw hat; also a coral sundress.

PS: Does anyone know where Silvia Kundera's video, "Their Beginning", is? I love that vid and I can't seem to find it now. :'(
PPS: I love sepiatinted; it's lovely to just sit down and read.
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Friday, May 14th, 2004

Subject:exams! exams!
Time:5:29 pm.
Mood: stressed.
Pick a band and answer the questions with its song titles.

Band: hanson

1. are you male or female?: madeline
2. describe yourself?: crazy beautiful
3. how would other people describe you? get up and go
4. describe your main interest: thinking of you
5. how do you feel about yourself?: weird
6. where would you rather be?: back to the island
7. describe how you live: dancing in the wind
8. describe how you love: where's the love?
9. share a few words of wisdom: believe

Exam stress has caused me to discover that I want to live by the sea in Waianae and learn to surf and study marine biology and walk to the beach drinking... what is it you Americans call slurpees?
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Friday, May 7th, 2004

Subject:birds in the trees just make me depressed?!
Time:12:21 am.
Mood: enthralled.
First post!

I miss my old livejournal already, but it's nice not to have to remember to friendslock everything these days. I've been writing more than ever. Of course, exams are coming up, and that is why.

Anyway -- this is a crossover, The Changeover and The Tricksters, both by Margaret Mahy, both completely fabulous. Thanks for the link, Steph, you inspired me. Sorensen Carlisle and Felix Carnival are two of my favourite characters ever, though I love Sorry much, much more. I really enjoyed this one, although I must say I've never written anything so fast before.

kingfisher, sorry carlisle/felix carnival, pg-13Collapse )
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